Last night I fell asleep at 5am.  I only got 3 hours sleep.  I lay in bed tossing and turning in darkness. Hopefully, I will get enough sleep tonight.  I need it.  So off to bed I go.

Good night to you on my side of the world....Good day to those just rising from sleep.

Just sharing

I love the green set a lot.  Maybe I'll take a pic while wearing it to show how nice it looks.

Today G got a call from doctor's office telling her that her liver count was elevated.  Doctor wants to test her for hepatitis.  She will have to go back again to do blood tests and for an ultrasound on Friday.     And of course, I became worried considering what could be wrong.  I always fear the worst.  I pray, as I always do, that it's nothing serious.  My G  has always been the most of sickly of the kids.  As a baby she had an intestinal obstruction, asthma , ear infections and stomach problems.  She's had minor problems with heart also.  She easily gets sinusitis.  She was also tested for diabetes and just this year, she was diagnosed with PCOS.  Early during the year, she had a lump on her neck that required xrays and then a CAT scan.  And so now, it's her liver.    I cannot help worrying about her.  Thank God, so far, she has not been seriously ill and things seem to be under control for now.   But now...the liver.  Please God, let it not be a serious thing.

This day was rather filled with upsets.  I had to pay 62.00 dollars for a school text book that D had already turned in but the woman that took it two months ago, refused to credit it as being returned because a part of the barcode was missing.  Not only did she not clear D's record but even yelled and accused her of taking off the barcode.  As if D felt eager to throw away 62 bucks.  Right.  Anyway, nothing was accomplished.  Not talking to principal, not talking to the rude woman.  I told D that from now on she should protect herself from such situation and immediately report as soon as possible any miniscule tears that should appear on her school textbooks.

S made me very sad and upset.  I don't know how to handle what's on my mind.  If I should say something or just not care anymore.  I feel like just keeping busy and away and avoid a confrontation.

I've got two things on mind that I cannot decide on.  I really do want to take a French course but I don't want to take the entrance exam and come face to face with my ex boss.  I know it's silly that that would keep me away from doing something I really want to do, but this woman still gives me nightmares.  I am not kidding, I've had many nightmares since I left my job at the testing department.  I wish I could just summon courage and say 'what the hell" and register for classes.  Another thing I want to do is take a salsa class at my community center.  Although, I already know how to dance salsa, I think it would be fun to interact with fellow dancers, plus, it's good exercise.    

This love has taken it's toll on me.....

This Love

I was so high I did not recognize
The fire burning in her eyes
The chaos that controlled my mind
Whispered goodbye and she got on a plane
Never to return again
But always in my heart

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

I tried my best to feed her appetite
Keep her coming every night
So hard to keep her satisfied
Kept playing love like it was just a game
Pretending to feel the same
Then turn around and leave again

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

I'll fix these broken things
Repair your broken wings
And make sure everything's alright
My pressure on your hips
Sinking my fingertips
Into every inch of you
Cause I know that's what you want me to do

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And my heart is breaking in front of me
She said Goodbye too many times before

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore...

Sharing my latest...

I wore this bracelet  today with the matching earrings I made last night.  I made them to match a rose colored blouse I wore today.  Not to toot my own horn , but they did look really nice! 

I have a  complaint....I am running out of space to put my earrings and all other bead jewelry in!  My collection is growing and I quickly need a system of storage.  I looked online for some ideas and 'lo and behold, I found these cool stands !!!  Take a look below:

Isn't it a cool earring stand????  I'm thinking about ordering it   Also a necklace and bracelet stand.  The only thing is where to find room for such big things.  Still, I just know my "babies" will look soooooo pretty hanging from those stands.  I call my jewelry, my "babies" because they are such a joy to me.    Yes, I am only a beginner beader, but I take pride in my creations.  To see the array of colors of beads strung into jewelry, it's just an awesome thing for me.

Necklace stand

Off to have my nightly glass of soymilk with flaxseeds and cinnamon.

Bye for now.

We visited my mom today.  It was raining cats and dogs as we arrived but visit turned out just fine. 

A while ago,  I phoned M in Mexico City and he sounded very sleepy and tired.  He said he missed us terribly  (oooh reaally??      Hmm, ok.  I knew he was feeling tired so I kept things brief and then I let him go rest.  He's due to return on Wednesday.

"Ole, Ole Ole!"

  yes.....Congrats to Spain on winning Eurocup 2008!!!!  1-0 victory over Germany won them the championship.     

CAMPEONES DE EUROPA

Not much went on on Saturday.  I went to Hobby Lobby (again) and bought more beads, a wrought iron wall plantholder (for my herbs) and two pretty mirrors.  

I worked on more beading while I watched tv with G.  Poor G, she was so bored.  I wish she would make new friends but she is such an introvert.        

I don't have much else to tell.  Nothing incredibly amazing happening. 

See ya

Earrings I made on Saturday  night.

Just finished making a necklace, bracelet and earring set and I am dead tired.  I felt sleepy a long time ago but I  wanted to finish what I'd started.  I told you, I am addicted to beading.  Anyway, I finished and was taking a photo of the set when I realized I had made a mistake.  Two beads  of a different color were not supposed to be added.  Hmmm...now I will have to redo my bead work.

Off to bed....

Just returned from having dinner with some friends.  B called to tell me she was in the neighborhood attending her son's baseball game and if I would care to join her.  I was still a bit groggy from my long afternoon nap but I went ahead and met her and husband at park around 7pm.  My kids didn't want to go.  After game, they invited me to have dinner with them.  I called  up kids  to ask them if they wanted to go, again, they said no.  So, I went to meet friends alone.  It was nice to be around my childhood friends.  I still feel shy  and self conscious to be around them since we had been out of touch for decades , but they are still  essentially the same. Down to earth, hardworking and gracious. Same people that knew me at 13 years of age.  And even though I tend to be quiet  in their presence, there is still an element of comfort and familiarity with them and that's really nice.

Well you can tell evryone Im a down disgrace
Drag my name all over the place.
I dont care anymore.
You can tell evrybody bout the state Im in
You wont catch me crying cos I just cant win.
I dont care anymore I dont care anymore

I dont care what you say
I dont play the same games you play.

cos Ive been talking to the people that you call your friends
And it seems to me theres a means to and end.
They dont care anymore.
And as for me I can sit here and bide my time
I got nothing to lose if I speak my mind.
I dont care anymore I dont care no more

I dont care what you say
We never played by the same rules anyway.

I wont be there anymore
Get out of my way
Let me by
I got better things to do with my time
I dont care anymore I dont care anymore
I dont care anymore I dont care anymore

Well, I dont care now what you say
cos evry day Im feeling fine with myself
And I dont care now what you say
Hey Ill do alright by myself
cos I know.

cos I remember all the times I tried so hard
And you laughed in my face cos you held all the cards.
I dont care anymore.
And I really aint bothered what you think of me
cos all I want of you is just a let me be.
I dont care anymore dyou hear? I dont care no more

I dont care what you say
I never did believe you much anyway.

I wont be there no more
So get out of my way.
Let me by
I got better things to do with my time
I dont care anymore
Dyou hear? I dont care anymore
I dont care no more
You listening? I dont care no more
No more!

You know I dont care no more!

What a bummer.  I am feeling low on energy.  Wonder if it has to do with my sleeping only four hours last night or because I lowered my dosage of meds.  And yet, maybe it's because S upsets me so.  Perhaps it's a combination of all. 

I fell asleep after 4:00am this morning.  I watched tv and did some beading till that time.  My circadian clock seems out of whack since Summer vacation started.  In fact, everybody's circadian clock is messed up here at home.  With the exception of M.  His routine has stayed same, so his clock is right on schedule.  Actually, he's only had to deal with the two hours time difference while in Buenos Aires.  By the way, he should be in Lima, Peru now and then on to Mexico City. He says he hates business trips. Wonder if he means it.  Is it terrible to say that I don't really miss him?  It pretty much feels the same around home without him.

  La, la, la, la....you bashful boy...   Listening to Poetry Man by Phoebe Snow.  I also like Queen Latifah's cover but I still prefer Phoebe's version.  Funny, now everytime I hear the song, I am reminded of that scene in Running with Scissors ,where the main character, Augusten goes to his mother's house and is surprised to find his mom engaged in an intimate situation with another woman. Quite a shocker for the kid!  This movie is funny, sad and a bit disturbing.  I read the book many years ago before the movie came out and I could not believe the stuff! It is supposedly a memoir.  Anyhow, I liked the movie and have seen it everytime  it's shown on tv.   I can't help myself.  It also has a great mid 70's soundtrack.

By the way, Augusten's brother, John  Elder Robinson wrote an excellent book about growing up with undiagnosed Asperger's.  

You make me laugh
Cause your eyes they light the night
They look right through me
You bashful boy
You're hiding something sweet
Please give it to me yeah, to me

Talk to me some more
You don't have to go
You're the poetry man
You make things all rhyme

You are a genie
All I ask for is your smile
Each time I rub the lamp
When I am with you
I have a giggling teen-age crush
Then I'm a sultry vamp

Talk to me some more
You don't have to go
You're the poetry man
You make things all right

So once again
It's time to say so long
And so recall the cull of life
You're going home now
Home's that place somewhere you go each day
To see your wife

Talk to me some more
You don't have to go
You're the poetry man
You make things all rhyme

I ask myself why is it that some people cannot just be straight and sincere about their feelings?  Why beat around the bush and let things linger?  Lingering only  makes people waste  time and effort.  I, for one, prefer to be told the truth rather than be left in limbo wondering what is happening.  My feeling is, if you ask for truth, it means you are ready to face it.  Some people might like to live in denial of things. pretending all is well, sweeping the problem under the rug.  Not me!  But enough about my ranting.    

 Today I went to Hobby Lobby and bought so many beads and stuff for making earrings, necklaces, bracelets, you name it.  I went wild in there. I felt like a child in a candy store !    I spent three complete hours looking at all the beautiful beads, especially the Swavorski crystals.  Beautiful!  Also saw some czech and Italian beads. I was so happy that they had a big sale of half price off.  So, mmm, I  must have bought about thirty packages of beads, beading string and earring hooks.  After shopping , I went to pick up Daniela from school and headed home.  Then we all went out to have lunch at Silver Palace (Chinese buffet).  After eating, we went to Whole Foods Market.  I made a beeline towards the herbs and picked out a pot each of oregano, thyme and peppermint.  The peppermint plant smelled delicious just as if I were smelling a stick of gum.   Oh, my little herb garden is growing and looking so sweet.  Later on, I went to HEB to buy sodas and dessert  for dinner since D and D are coming over for supper.  I'm not cooking, though.  We are ordering pizzas   For dessert, The Skinny Cow!  Isn't that a funny name for ice cream sandwiches?  Even funnier, the logo is an image of a curvy cow.  LOL  See below.

Ooops, I have to run...they are here.  See ya later. 7:10pm

9:21, they just left.

I showed D all the earrings and bracelets I made and she  really liked them and so I gave her two pairs of earrings.

This is one of the pairs.  I also made her a matching bracelet.

Some of the bead jewelery I made recently.

Beading is my new hobby and what chillaxes (chill+relax) me and keeps me sane. I like making drop earrings the most as I can put them together in no time.  I've only been beading  for a month and this is only the basic stuff.  I am still learning and hope to get better at it as it is something that I just love doing.    I am hooked on beading!

I read your comment.  You are very sweet, thank you .   It's nice to know someone cares.

Do you have another blog?  I wish you I could read more of you.  Also, thanks for all the cute e-mails.  I especially loved the kitty one.  So cute.

Bisous

Tonight I will again, only take half a tablet of med.  Last night I took half and today I feel fine.  I hope that all continues well.  I am so afraid of having withdrawal symptoms. 

Gotta go

The Cure - Love Cats

Ah
We move like cagey tigers
We couldn't get closer than this
The way we walk
The way we talk
The way we stalk
The way we kiss
We slip through the streets
While everyone sleeps
Getting bigger and sleeker
And wider and brighter
We bite and scratch and scream all night
Let's go and throw
All the songs we know...

Into the sea
You and me
All these years and no one heard
I'll show you in spring
It's a treacherous thing
We missed you hissed the lovecats

We're so wonderfully wonderfully wonderfully
Wonderfully pretty!
Oh you know that I'd do anything for you...
We should have each other to tea huh?
We should have each other with cream
Then curl up by the fire
And sleep for awhile
It's the grooviest thing
It's the perfect dream

Into the sea
You and me
All these years and no one heard
I'll show you in spring
It's a treacherous thing
We missed you hissed the lovecats

We're so wonderfully wonderfully wonderfully
Wonderfully pretty!
Oh you know that I'd do anything for you...
We should have each other to dinner huh?
We should have each other with cream
Then curl up in the fire
Get up for awhile
It's the grooviest thing
It's the perfect dream

Hand in hand
Is the only way to land
And always the right way round
Not broken in pieces
Like hated little meeces...
How could we miss
Someone as dumb as this?

I love you... let's go...
Oh... solid gone...
How could we miss
Someone as dumb as this?

Just ran into a surprising article that lists Houston as the number one city in USA to live, work and play in!   Really surprising to me.  Although, I must say,  I've always thought Houston to be a delicious mixed salad of sights, sounds.  The diversity of Houston is one of the things I most cherish. 

Below, the article.    

Wednesday, June 4, 2008provided by

Our approach this year to picking the ten best cities in which to live and work was simple: Look for places with strong economies and abundant jobs, then demand reasonable living costs and plenty of fun things to do. When we ran the numbers, some of the names that popped up made us do a double take at first. So we hit the road to meet movers, shakers and regular folks, experience the ambience and take in the sights.

We discovered that our numbers guru, Kevin Stolarick, hadn't steered us wrong. Stolarick, research director at the Martin Prosperity Institute, a think tank that studies economic prosperity, says: "Our formula highlights cities not just with strong past performance, but also with all the ingredients for future success." One key to a bright future is a healthy shot of people in the creative class. People in creative fields -- scientists, engineers, architects, educators, writers, artists and entertainers -- are catalysts of vitality and livability in a city.

The cities that made our list also represent larger surrounding areas. And because we understand that city living isn't for everyone, we've highlighted some great suburbs, too.

Pack a bag and join us on a tour of the Best Cities for 2008 and prepare for some surprises.

 C is now officially a high schooler and D is now a h.s. senior! 

It's my saint day

Yesterday was Christian's 15th birthday and we went to Olive Garden for lunch. It was nice and delicious as always.  After that,we went bowling.   It was funny to see  us as we were all newbies.  Nevertheless, it was a lot of fun and we plan to do it again very soon.

I will be on spring break this week and I plan to chillax and enjoy the time off.  It's a pity that kids won't be off for spring break till next week.  That pretty much puts a damper on any plans for all of us to go out of town.

Laters!

You are the one for me
For me, for me, formidable
You are my love very
Very, very, véritable
Et je voudrais pouvoir un jour enfin te le dire,
Te l'écrire,
Dans la langue de Shakespeare

My Daisy, Daisy,
Daisy, désirable
Je suis malheureux
D'avoir si peu
De mots à
T'offrir en cadeau

Darling I love you, love you
Darling I want you
Et puis c'est à peu près tout
You are the one for me
For me, for me, formidable

You are the one for me
For me, for me, formidable
But how can you see me,
See me, see me, si minable
Je ferais mieux d'aller choisir mon vocabulaire
Pour te plaire
Dans la langue de Molière

Toi, tes eyes, ton nose,
Tes lips adorables
Tu n'as pas compris
Tant pis
Ne t'en fais pas et..
Viens tombe dans mes bras

Darling I love you, love you
Darling I want you
Et puis le reste on s'en fout
You are the one for me
For me, for me, formidable

Je me demande même
Pourquoi je t'aime
Toi qui te moque de moi et de tout
Avec ton air canaille,
Canaille, canaille,
How can I love you

Had a big argument with M.  In the middle of it was C.  Many an argument was started because of C's behaviour, bringing M and I into big fights.  But he is not to be blamed.  It's M's stupid, stubborn attitude.  Day was crap for all.    

In the evening, kids were ok, talking to him and including him in things.  They are so noble and kind- hearted.  So forgiving.   Me, I don't k now.  I am resentful and hurt as hell.  This man acts like a shell.  Like there is nothing in him to give.  He is comfortably fine excluding people from his emotions.

It's comforting to hear kids laughing and enjoying their evening.  G has been sitting at next computer near me.  She has been listening to  music I have been playing.  She asked me why I was playing all Brazilian music, told her it's my "Brazilian Night"   Wish I could do the samba.  I try but it ends up more like a merengue.  What the hell...there are more important things in the world than being able to dance samba.

S called me today.  I was glad to hear a soothing voice since I was so upset and crying.  Wish that called had lasted hours.  I needed it terribly.

   Tomorrow will be my friend Soli's third anniversary of her passing.